Sighting the Ka’ba for the first time

I was young when I received my very first present from my teacher; it was a token of appreciation for performing in front of a large gathering of Muslim sisters. I had a voice of an innocent child; sweet and pure. Alhamdulillah.

I placed my gift perfectly in the middle by clearing away everything from my shelf thus being the center of my attention. My gift was admired and observed many nights as I faded off to sleep wondering what it would be like when I‘m there, how will I react when I first see the Ka’ba, what will I wish for.

As years went by having faith amid life’s storm felt natural, I continued raising my hands in prayer asking for a chance to visit His House as that was the only place I wanted to be, even my dreams were blessed with such beauty and grandeur that it filled my heart with such happiness. I wanted this so badly that I begged for it to become a reality. Allah surely does listen, my invitation was accepted.

When the days came closer my feelings became stronger, I struggled to sleep in the midst of nights because I was extremely excited, overjoyed, all my life I have been waiting for this moment. I pictured nobody but myself standing in silence, in humility, like a slave in front of the Ka’ba. I pictured a sea of sweet tears rolling like never before. I pictured Noor shining on me and God speaking to me. I pictured a dream. My imagination was so strong that even I was choked by it. I prepared my outfit with great admiration. It is time. ‘Today I am going to my Lords House. Labbayk! He knows I’m coming, He can hear me!’ Lowering my gaze as I walked into the Masjid, I followed my brothers’ footsteps till I heard him say…

‘Bismillahi Allah hu Akbar.’ – In the name of Allah, Allah is the Greatest.

Gently, I lifted my head.

I was scared. My eyes dry, shaken with fear. My mouth wide open, I was speechless. My vision teeming – the beauty, the simplicity, it was perfection. I was staring at my hands, empty with nothing to offer. My well-rehearsed words all cluttered, scrambled up. I was stuck, like my soul just froze.

It wasn’t the same feeling that I imagined it to be, it wasn’t the same emotion that I built up all my life for when I will first see the Ka’ba. I was confused; it wasn’t what I dreamt of or what I pictured. As Muslims we have the ability to recognise that Allah alone is Lord of the Worlds, but as humans we have such limitations that our minds cannot comprehend His Might and Power and all His Attributes because it is so overwhelming. This is why it’s ‘He alone we worship, He alone we ask for help’, because it is He alone that’s worthy of worship and only He can help us when we are in need of absolutely anything.

It was only a few days later, from His Mercy, that my pathway was cleared and I was able to gently place both my hands and touch the Ka’ba. And that is when I spoke from my heart. Subhanallah

That moment has changed the way I now pray to Allah (swt)

That moment has changed my life forever.

That moment ♡

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His presence is near

If my servants ask you concerning Me: I am indeed close (to them). I respond to the prayer of every supplicant when he or she calls on Me

– Quran 2:186

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Labbayka Allahumma labbayk, labbayka la sharika laka labbayk. Inna al-hamd wal-ni`mata laka wal-mulk, la sharika lak

Here I am, O Allah! Here I am
Here I am, You have no partner, here I am
Verily all praise and thanks belong to You
Verily, all blessings belong to You
Verily, all sovereignty belongs to You
You have no partner

Muslims from all corners of this world will soon be preparing themselves for when they enter the state of Ihram. The Talbiyah, Labbayk echoing throughout their journey from the moment they leave their house, their loved ones, their status and wealth… Leaving everything behind, they are now the Guests of Allah – if they were to ask for anything Allah will give it to them. Subhanallah! If they were to ask for forgiveness Allah will forgive them.

My intentions for Hajj was made earlier this year when I felt like there was a void in my heart… Alhumdullilah I have everything, I have travelled to many beautiful countries and witnessed many of Allah’s Creations but what my heart really wanted and what I felt like I needed was to be close to Allah. I have heard many say ‘I am not ready’ and that made me believe that I must be the ‘perfect Muslim’ before I can go to Hajj too.

“I am not ready”

That was the perfect time for the evil whisperer to tell me I’m not ready yet; that I must get married first, my husband will take me, buy your dream car, buy a house, you have all these holidays you can go to first, you are still young. He has attacked me from all angles. He works in such deviating ways that made me believe something so good and beneficial is a burden! This is normal.

When your call to Allah’s House is written nothing will come in the way to destroy it and Allah will provide us with everything plus more then we can imagine to make it happen. Allah is the Provider of Rizq. Everything will be taken care of.

Remember when Ibraheem (as) was commanded by Allah to leave his wife and child in a barren land? Or when he was instructed by Allah to sacrifice his one and only son at the time? He faced so many tests and as a result Ibraheem (as) was given the title: Khalilullah, Friend of Allah. Subhanallah! Everything was taken care of.

We must have full conviction that Our Lord will provide us with all the means possible to get to His House, to keep us safe throughout the journey and to complete our Hajj.

He knows when we will go
He knows how we will get there
He knows who we will go with

More importantly Allah can see our intentions. That is what we have control over.

Ya Tawwabo Ya Muntaqeemo. The Accepter of Repentance The Lord of Retribution. I received tests after tests till my soul literally felt exhausted from everything and everyone. I have had to hold on tightly to the ropes of Allah and accept what was coming my way but more importantly I had to be extremely aware of my intentions and not to let my heart sway the wrong direction. I have had to pray 2 rakaat Nafil Salaah to help me when evil thoughts crossed my mind and to reassure myself as to why I am going to Hajj. This was my test. I know that once I have my Ihraam on every burden will be lifted from me… My focus will be only on Allah alone. My Creator.

Millions upon millions of Muslims will embark this incredible journey of a lifetime every year, the only difference between us all is our intentions, if we feel that it is not sincere repent to Allah. The one who performs Hajj for the sake of Allah with complete sincerity and obedience and during their Hajj did not engage in any sin or say anything indecent they will return like a newborn, pure of sin. Intentions are essential and our actions are dependant on our intentions – If our intentions are good our Hajj will be accepted and blessed. Insha’Allah!

Whatever hardship we encounter during this journey we shouldn’t be saddened by it and grieve, we must all think that we are in the path of Allah and we will be rewarded for all the time we are spending to please Him. My only advice I can offer to those who intend to complete Hajj is to read the Seerah of Prophet Muhammed (Peace and Blessing upon Him) and Ibraheem (as) to get a better understanding as to why Hajj is the last pillar of Islam.

Oh Allah, make it easy for every Muslim to complete their Hajj.
Grant us full understanding and wisdom behind this virtuous act.
Clear our evil thoughts and polish our intentions.
All the duas our Prophet (pbuh) and servants made grant it to us and accept it on our behalf.
Oh Allah, accept our worship, forgive all our sins and be pleased with us.

“Oh Allah, I ask of you all the goodness which Muhammad (SAWS) asked of, and I seek refuge in all the things from which Muhammad (SAWS) has sought refuge from. Only You are capable of helping us and your function is only to convey the message of the truth. There is no strength to refrain from sins, but with the protection of Allah, and there is no power to accomplish good deeds, but with the help of Allah.”

Oh Allah, please accept our Hajj.


Please keep me in your duas.

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A Blessing

The tougher the lesson the bigger the blessing. Iv endured pain in my life and even the shortest of journeys seemed like a lifetime. What have I learnt from it? Patience. Everything passes. He watches. He listens. He waits and when He knows the time is right He answers.

He will always answer.


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Live the moment


Iv been rushing around lately trying to get everything done on time. Planning my life, giving myself to do lists that it has completely exhausted me out.
Iv been complaining about stupid things that are not done my way, all the small things that don’t matter iv complained about. It’s given me no benefit whatsoever…

Today’s food for thought, ‘live in the moment’ there’s so many things we want that we don’t need so many things we have that we can appreciate and enjoy.

Leave the rest of your worries in God’s hands.

Enjoy life. It’s one of the most beautiful things we have been gifted x

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Friday Message | Our signs

‘And on the earth are signs for the certain [in faith] And in yourselves. Then will you not see? And in the heaven is your provision and whatever you are promised.’

(Surah Adh-Dhariyat 51:20-22)

He is the All-Provider of our needs, from the food we eat to the roof over our heads. The Protecter of all the calamities He has saved us from, calamities we were aware and unaware of.

Often we forget that these too are signs from Allah, signs that bring us closer to Him.

May Allah (swt) grant us all Jannatul Firdaus. Ameen.

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Friday Message | Guidance

‘Guide us to the straight path.
The path of those upon whom You have bestowed favor…’

(Surah Fatiha 1:6-7)

This is the dua we make several times in our Salaah.

There are many traps placed in our paths and occasionally we stumble, however we must never forget He is Ar Rahman, Ar Raheem. By asking for guidance, for forgiveness we must never give up and keep moving forward. May Allah (swt) guide us all. Ameen.

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